Happy (Not) Anniversary

Although made by a fan, this is my favorite music video of all time. I watch this video about once a month to make me appreciate life, even though it’s quite tragic… Today would have marked 6 years being married to my now ex-wife.  Everyday I wake up in a haze, as I don’t feel her presence next to me in bed.  Everyone tells me I will get over it, and to move on, but they don’t understand… Just like the old man in this video, I will one day look back on my life in my final moments, and remember her face, and how it made me feel. I will never be okay, and I guess the truth is, I don’t want to be okay.  

“We just don't recognize life's most significant moments while they're happening. 

Back then I thought, "Well, there'll be other days." I didn't realize that that was the only day.” -Field of Dreams

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zJdYlUiWAVY